Niki In Thailand

Today is my Anniversery....12 month in thailand....and i realised today that thailand changes you in ways you cannot imagine. I realised this as i charged down the highway at 160km/hr while phone facebooking.....knowing i wasnt going to be stopped/pulled over or even arrested. This is a completely lawless society. Im not bitching or moaning but its something people really dont realise. Maybe im just Gatvol.
The morons that come here just get trapped in the lawless system. Its so so sad. Like Ridiculously sad. Pathetic really. This is not a place to live. Poverty and affluence are millimeters apart. Crime and Justice dont exist and its a place run by complete idiots. Every one here is only motivated to make a quick buck. Nothing more/ nothing less. And as sad as it it. Its true.
Its comming up for the holiday season now and tourists are piling into pattaya. Completely oblivious that the statistics lie at 76% now....76% of ALL male pattaya'ian tourists end up with a thai "bride" because they didnt use protection and are now up the duff/ they got conned/ or "fell inlove". The saddest part of all....is they are so OBVLIOVIOUS to all of this that they dont even care that they have been roped into such a aweful society. Further out of Pattaya sure; you get some decent people, but really...in Pattaya; there are minimal decent people who are NOT out to con you; bleed you dry of funds; trick you; use you; harras you; cheat you; steal from you; do a half assed job for you; take their time; and any other numerous amount of useless things that make Pattaya what it is....Really people....you have NO idea. So easy infact to be caught up that i personally know a couple of smart young fella's with an entire future ahead of them that just got caught up in the system. Sad. Pathetic. A waste of those bright brains which will just become like the rest of the Assholes that live here.
It may sound like im bitching....and you know what...i am. I'll tell you why. Because i really cant deal with seeing it happen all the time. These people have familys back at home. What do they tell their families once they have been caught up in all this?? its so SAD! If i were one of these people i would be completely embarrased to tell my family that i knocked up a "thai bride" and that my life has gone to shit. What a waste. I really would fall off the face of the planet if that happened to me. "ooooh family and friends; im having so much fun in thailannd! I live in a completely lawless society and my self esteem is so low that the best i can do is a bird that doesnt speak my language because im to useless to come home because this pathetic life is just some much easier to handle" (I wish i had sarcasim font). And you know what; i dont really care if im offending anyone. Seriously i've also seen some people make a good life for themselves and their "thai brides' here. good for those decent fella's. But what made me realise this was when my boyfreind pointed out to me how sick the society here was. I didnt realise it myself....i had been denying it; and became so adapted and accustomed to it that i needed to be shaken straight to see how horrid it is. Where a new condo worth about 40 Billion Dollars goes up but they couldnt be bothered to take the time to clean the seweage systems and rather just have raw sewage accost your nostrils. Or help all the mange ridden street dogs. Or supply better walk ways. Or make the police less corrupt. Or Supply kids with stuff for school. No. Rather scwander the money that forien investments bring in.
Where is the marine protection? Have you seen Pattaya Beach? Covered in needles and trash and disgusting, fat, sunburnt foriegners. Nothing like the images you see online; or advertised. I dont know when or where they took the pictures for pattaya beach from.....because if people really knew what pattaya was like or smelt like or sounded like or looked like.....i doubt HIGHLY that any right mided women would let their "mid-life crises husbands" come here or even thier kids. Explore some where safe rather.
Personally....personal experiance...if only you knew the crimes that people can get away with. Defacing currency is common practice; defacing someones passport; treason is easy when its someone elses flag you burning; sexual harrasment; consumer laws just dont exist.
I sometmes try to help people; i really do because i can see how screwed they getting but even so.....i've stopped..... whats the point? Why care? They dont care about me? Life has no value here unless you have dedicated your life to the monestry.....No Meaning. Its really so sad. So real. So Raw.
Look There are decent people around....sometimes; like my gorgeous friend Steph, Art and Sadie. But its because they are all realists about the situation here.
I just want to be able to spend one day walking down the street to the 7/11 and not be harrased for a taxi (although i just parked my car infornt of the git) I do NOT want another tailored suit. I do not want a frigging massage. I am NOT your "Friend". I am also not someone to call "Sexly Ladee" or "Massaaaaage for you madaaaaame" No thank you. Just No. I do not want a speed boat for the day; i do not want to buy coffins for dead kids; i do not want to save the pattaya beach; i do not want to support the drug habits of any person selling narcatics on beach road. I just want to stay in my isolated little piece of Wong Amat paradise. Just leave me alone. Im here to work. Not to make dodgy as friends thank you.

Well its that time of year now.....WINTER!


Myspace Graphics and Myspace Layouts

Yes...Winter in Thailand. You know in SA; it gets cold. Seriously cold sometimes. Below 10 Degrees. Here you walk into the stores and all the winter wollies are out in full force. All the Thai's are wearing jackets and jersies.....GUYS IT HASNT FALLEN BELOW 27 DEGREES YET! WTF???? Its actually so hot here that when you put on your indoor aircon at about 27 degrees too...its STILL colder inside than outside. Its ridiculous. The only thing that potentially shows you that its winter is that the sun is setting a little earlier.....

Obviously being thailand and 98% Buddhist. Christmas is not a celebrated holiday. No public Holiday for christmas day etc. So only really western/european places celebrate the holidays...So starbucks (The heaven of coffee's) has launched their CHRISTMAS CHEER THINGS! Its so cool to walk in and there are little santa cups and snow flakes and little cute bags.....i love it...i absolutely love it! :)

Ok.....So this time i thought....embracing and taking pictures on the way to work was the way to win over my frustration of the drive......it seemed to work......
The Potentially retarded cuttlefish vendor; whom i seem to get stuck behind EVERY morning......Oh the smell.....its vile.....










Some general Images of scooters and what they can be used for:
1. As a station wagon....




















School Kids:
I once asked why it was that all the girls have this useless looking bob hair? It suits some and it really doesnt others (especially that rather large lady-boy)..... I was told that they a. all need to match and b. it was to hot to have thier hair over their necks.....

Do not speak, unless it improves on silence.-Buddhist Quote

I was stuck behind a darned SLOW scooter on my way to the deli to write this. The deli is like a mini hide away from the realities that are Pattaya. There are 2 words that aptly describe Pattaya; Oblivious and Obsene. It truely is the long drop of Thailand. Phuket isnt much better. Phuket is the more expencive version of Pattaya. All the "normal" people i have met (and i use the term normal loosly).....agree that Pattaya is a place where the unwanted come. They come to satisfy their longing to be loved. SURE; they need to pay for it and SURE they now expect ever woman is available at a price but its the sad souls who are shunned from their own communities that come here. I feel "almost" sorry for these people. Complete;y unattractive; poor. But here; any currancy is better than the baht and although its perverse and sick; they find the love they seek.
Stuck behine this cuttlefish street vending scooter (travelling at 3km/hr). (I sometimes feel that im in a video game....dogding the pedestrians....dodging the dogs; scooters; taxies; song-theaw; vendors; road kill; already knocked over pedistrians....) i had the oppertunity to look around and really SEE my home street for what it was. Workers; men and woman in their hardhats constructing massive appartment buildings for us foriegners......its like slavery all over again; no wonder so many of tha thais hold resentment towards the Farang.

My home town is filled with despair and sadness; love and kindness and compassion. Its a pressure cooker of disgust and beauty. Wendy says she loves it 100% of the time. Myself i find that some days i love it and some days i cant even bear to stomach the people. Its so sad sometimes to see how badly treated some people are. As a woman living in Pattaya; everytime i engage in a conversation with a person of the oppisite sex; i need to be consistantly aware that all i am is a piece of purchasable meat. Sad but true. And really the men here have no "Skaam". The are openly disgusting. If you a woman; you are open hunting season and a free for all. I thought maybe some examples might help explain the mentality of the persons we meet here. I wont use names as they probably have familys and what-not.

1. (this was my own fault) There was this really hotty at touch ruggers.......my god.....he was beautiful......muscular and NOT thai; Perfect english (Rare)...so i think i'll flirt a bit. Nice. He didnt really respond so i thought; maybe hes a little different and not much like that other blokes in Pattaya; so a couple of weeks in i take oranges to ruggers....and offer this awesome piece of eye candy some delicious cold orange.....his responce "No thanks i dont eat fruit; its like sweet vegi's" Obviously i was confused....weird answer......turns out this hotty of muscular sexiness......(Cue cold shower) is........14!!!!!! WTF! Serious!

2. I meet this bloke who was flirting with me via email and what not. I wasnt really respnding back because i wasnt that keen; but none the less; any attention here is ok attention i guess.This guy ended up asking me out on a date..... Turns out this prick; has a wife and kids and was flirting with me. WTF?

3. We meet this Thai guy. Decent looking. English is good. Supposedly worked in New York. So we invite him out for lunch thinking we've made a cool new mate (A walking translator is more like it). He proceeds to invite wendy and i over for a "sleep over" and is rather clear about the fact that he would like both of us to attend. Yes. He was clear about the fact he wanted a 3-some. Seriously. Um.......no thanks.....needless to say we are now one friend down and better for it!!

4. The foot fish guy. There is the miff bloke on my way to gym; obese; red; drinking nose; from Aus; and just blatently rude and annoying and every frigging time i walk past there is some comment. "Hey sexy; want the fish to tickle ya p*ssy?"; "hey, back for some more i see; want the fish to tickle......" You get the drift. I have now had to walk an extra 5 minutes just to avoid this asshole.....omg....what an asshole. Who even says stuff like that. Out loud.

5. Sadet's Man in the Shops. Sadie was shopping at carrefore and some knob decided to swear rather....colourfully.... in swiss-german; not only at his 3yr kid but his under-aged thai wife. Disgusting.

On the more up-side than the horrors that is Pattaya. I need to point out that the whole of Thailand is NOT like this. There are these amazing little places where the people are genuine and kind and wonderful. And where the cultural beauty abounds! Like if one were to drive 1hr out of pattaya you can find the most delightful little rural places filled with tropical forest (filled proably with pertrifying wild animals like cobra's and.......omg......spiders.....) and little geko's sit on your car windscreen and sickly mange ridden puppies play in the roads and emaciated old thai people plow rice fields....and where orange clad monks wake up at 4am to walk in meditation and ask for alms and the incence filled humid air clings to your sweat clad body. These are the places that remind you what thailand is really made of. And its really wonderful. I love these places. They are peaceful and calm and serene and filled with that buddist compassion. Those are the days i love. Those are the days that make the other days bearble.

Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them humanity cannot survive.-Dalai Lama